In another World…

Guess it comes with the persona I’m chasing 

Before I was me…you loved me

I don’t really know you 

We don’t really connect…static

I mean I stomach…

That’s hard to say about someone you are supposed to love

The only person one is supposed to love

The mother that gave birth to you

Now the only thing I am missing is everything else

Grave dug no way it gets deeper

Dirt beside me

My heart may harm me

Everything you do alarms me

I get away to calm me

Your soul I deny

Die with this feeling I might

Where do I qualify?

Where do I apply?

To do away with me

To break away from me

Now the world may realize how fucked up I have become

Acting like time is up

That it would take another world…

To make me a better son

This is What I wanted

Now that you are gone…

No closure just the love lost

Soldier on…

To where?

Find a place where the hurt end?

Always wrote with premeditation

I may have to live the rest of my life medicated

Tainted by hatred

Long life

I can't live life patient

What will it get me?

This is what I wanted

This is the crutch that I hoped for

More motivation?

What the fucks next?

Shit just don’t make sense

If this is what I wanted

Why do I still want more?

Am I not yet completed?

All pain compiled

A long list of altered reasons

Hit strides like a horse

I just want people to like me more

Now that you are gone

I have to fend for myself

I have to work harder

I have to strain hours

I have to shape days

Now that you are gone…

Is this what I wanted?

Make my legend righteous

Let the obstacles heighten

Guess that is what I wanted

Linger as the broken

With my soul so haunted

This is what I wanted

New Home

Have patience and heighten belief

Have faith that we will soon be free

Understand that I do this all for me

I want out these shackles

I want to love again

You are family…so you come with me

No matter the struggle, we will find relief

Sometimes it gets a little louder

All the days you fought for peace

Right beside you til we cut the leash

Baby wants pool so we’ll let it sink in deep

I don’t want to hide no more

If these words will make a dream

Every step is a step, but not just me

Personal oasis that I search for

If I piece it together

Motivation become king

One by one

Up a mountain

Reign me in 

Hold me tight

Keep me from tragedy

The thought of suicide is loud at times

It wants to yell while you push me aside

Every word it stings 

Falling particle by particle into scab

If I pick it off

I lose the only thing I’ve ever had