Like Barry Brown

Everywhere I go…spotlight

I like that

Like that ol’ smell

Remember, that dirt leather from the bus?

That wet paint from new home?

What is home?

For a person who has never owned a thing

Everything borrowed

Every dream bartered

I cut that scene too well

I never listened

Paid me what I wanted

Paint me like I’m haunted

Pains me to talk about me

Hurt me to smile wider

What is wrong with me?

Where did I forget all I love?

What am I here for?

Walls closing in…

I’ll die by silver lake

A bullet in the skull

Alone…like Barry Brown

When I lost Daisy Miller

I lost my soul

In your name…

We keep on about the same ideas

We slowly slip inside the nightmare

It’s rehearsed so we know when to side step

Ducking and dodging emotion

Every time your name uttered

We linger there

Like statues…like you

We pause in that state

Suspended from it all

Tell each other the same

Remember his smile?

Remember his ways?

We all hold our breath

Synchronized whispers

Because more than anything we remember the pain

We remember the bed

We remember the frame

We remember your cramps

We remember the stains

Lifting your legs rubbing your feet

We remember our grief 

Eyelids sputtering

We all knew it was coming

Maybe you wanted me to walk out

You hated my being there

Every promise I broke to you

Sold my soul for fortune

Never for you

That’s just how it goes

Far from reason

Closer to calling you by your name

As We Dwell

Just creatives with no space

Out of love so we out to space

With no way to understand

Nothing new

Nothing handed our way

If we could just for a second

Be something else entirely

Shake the world loose

Let our heads go

Sink in our place

Fall to nothing

This free space is too expensive for me

Wonder leaves no sense of apparition

No distraction this just like school

An aberration our brains plugged differently

May we go as we came

Same person

Same ways