This is What I wanted

Now that you are gone…

No closure just the love lost

Soldier on…

To where?

Find a place where the hurt end?

Always wrote with premeditation

I may have to live the rest of my life medicated

Tainted by hatred

Long life

I can't live life patient

What will it get me?

This is what I wanted

This is the crutch that I hoped for

More motivation?

What the fucks next?

Shit just don’t make sense

If this is what I wanted

Why do I still want more?

Am I not yet completed?

All pain compiled

A long list of altered reasons

Hit strides like a horse

I just want people to like me more

Now that you are gone

I have to fend for myself

I have to work harder

I have to strain hours

I have to shape days

Now that you are gone…

Is this what I wanted?

Make my legend righteous

Let the obstacles heighten

Guess that is what I wanted

Linger as the broken

With my soul so haunted

This is what I wanted