We keep on about the same ideas
We slowly slip inside the nightmare
It’s rehearsed so we know when to side step
Ducking and dodging emotion
Every time your name uttered
We linger there
Like statues…like you
We pause in that state
Suspended from it all
Tell each other the same
Remember his smile?
Remember his ways?
We all hold our breath
Synchronized whispers
Because more than anything we remember the pain
We remember the bed
We remember the frame
We remember your cramps
We remember the stains
Lifting your legs rubbing your feet
We remember our grief
Eyelids sputtering
We all knew it was coming
Maybe you wanted me to walk out
You hated my being there
Every promise I broke to you
Sold my soul for fortune
Never for you
That’s just how it goes
Far from reason
Closer to calling you by your name