Suspicious of August

Apart from the obvious, been suspicious of august

Malicious the whispers, I back broke for a piece of the promise

Lauded the timing

You don't want this, but I do want this

Apart from my search for solace, been haunted by august

Decisions do harm us, motivation is the one demon I harnessed

Apart from destruction, been wronged by august

Took a troubled moment for me to reach it

The pinnacle of depression

Happiness a lie I've sown, from lyric to poem

From written to spoken, always let my doubts grow...

Inside me seeds planted, beside what the grieving promised

A clear road to healing, but I don't see that coming

I see noose, gun, razor, me jumping off a skyscraper

Nothing got me like the promise of tomorrow

Nothing more wore me out like going to the same fountain

To bed with the same thoughts, Same angst, same Satan laughing